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No, really. The pitiful-est. Pitifullest? Anyway. To distract myself from my current state of abject misery, I'm going to keep hunt-and-peck typing this out with my one free hand (the only body part not currently huddled under the giant puffy comforter with the rest of pitiful me).

It's been an interesting few months,to say the least. )

The Temeraire books! They're good! )
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Posting about what I read is something I like to do, in theory, but in practice I just kept... not doing it. A friend told me about GoodReads, though, and it definitely makes reviewing what I read more natural to me, and is helping me keep on top of my 50 Books challenge better than the last two years. I like the site! I like the integrated BookSwap system! I mostly like the tagging system! I can have my library on my phone!

Anyway, yeah, sites about books. They're cool.
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Last night the boyf found himself really needing to talk about 'us' and our nonconventional relationship. We talked about us, about him, about me, about labels and plans and going off-script. I think I was able to make him feel better, to understand himself better. I showed him my own thought process and viewpoint. Honestly, I'm glad we are the way we are. I don't want 'normal', I don't do well with expectations and assumptions and treating relationships like goals. He's one of my best friends. I'm one of his. (He confessed it was confusing to him that he could talk about me with, well, me! We can communicate - that can't be normal, right? Haha.) I value the trust and acceptance we seem to have developed with each other. So it's different, so it can't be summed up with a word. We have a relationship, and it works for us in this moment.

You have to live the life you have. (Thank you, thefourthvine, for sharing about your son, for giving me such a clearly encapsulated understanding of what I've been feeling. You can't compare your situation to anyone else's, or even to society's expectations. Everyone is different, everyone is dealt different cards. That's life.)

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It's been two years without my grandfather now. More than two, but two Father's Day in particular. I always used to get him a card and chocolate covered cherries; they were his favorite, but he'd rarely buy them for himself. I still miss him. I try to hold on to the nuance of his voice and the feel of his hugs, his wry humor and gentle stoic outlook. It's strange for me to think about how much has happened since the last time we talked, how much he hasn't been here for. I'm grateful that he isn't in pain anymore, isn't sick anymore, but god. I miss him.

My own father I have many feelings about, but lately it's been hard to remember I love him. I suppose it's sad, but I've come to accept that the best lesson he can give me is an object lesson in how not to live my life -- a terrible note to end on, but I am running out of steam. Too meany sad thoughts. Time for some sleep and a better tomorrow.
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Hard months are hard. Thank heaven for fiction, at least. I think taking a break to see Despicable Me went a long way toward keeping me from exploding, or imploding. It's so fluffy!

And the new Sherlock BBC series! That's really engaging - although I like the direction they've taken, part of me wants an even more alternate take on Holmes canon: why not set it in the future? Why not have Holmes or Watson or Lestrade a different race, or gender? They could have played with the concept even more, I feel, for what's essentially fanfiction on tv. (Will I still be watching it avidly? Oh hells yes. :D )

More piecemeal booklogging:

7. Out by Natsuo Kirino.
Wow. How to describe Out. I loved it? Dark, violent, gripping and beautiful... )

8. Death By Chick Lit by Lynn Harris.
Okay, I picked this up because the title made me double-take, but it turned out to be a funny, catty, well done little murder mystery... )

9. Soon I Will Be Invincible by Austin Grossman.
I do love people running around in spandex and capes... )

10. Pigeons From Hell by Joe Lansdale and Nathan Fox.
Thoroughly spooky and violent, but artistically quite lovely... )


1. Ten Little Indians by Sherman Alexie [5/5]
2. The Summoner by Gail Z. Martin [4.5/5]
3. The Blood King by Gail Z. Martin [4/5]
4. Witch & Wizard by James Patterson and Gabrielle Charbonnet [2/5]

5. Daisy Kutter: The Last Train Job by Kazu Kibuishi [5/5]
6. Box Office Poison by Alex Robinson [4/5]
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If not for ants (and aunts, ha) I would be sleeping; ah well. Time to start catching up the book list.

5. Daisy Kutter: The Last Train Job by Kazu Kibuishi.
This is a lovely little graphic novel that mixes robots and the Wild West... )

6. Box Office Poison by Alex Robinson.
Another graphic novel, Box Office Poison is a twentysomething tangle of relationships... )


1. Ten Little Indians by Sherman Alexie [5/5]
2. The Summoner by Gail Z. Martin [4.5/5]
3. The Blood King by Gail Z. Martin [4/5]
4. Witch & Wizard by James Patterson and Gabrielle Charbonnet [2/5]
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23, man. 23! I've managed to survive an entire week past my birthday, which, haha, is actually an accomplishment. Let me just say, roadtripping to San Diego/LA was a lot of fun, but became the kind of vacation that is now a cautionary tale for Everyone I Know, Ever. XD

On the one hand, I now know for sure that I'm the person who can hold the fort down when the crazy hits the fan. I've also learned that sometimes you just gotta open your mouth and (gently) let someone know when their idea is a dumb one. Sometimes not following your instincts to avoid hurting someone's feelings or 'causing a problem' gets you driving down the road to Darwin Award territory.

In other news, dementia is morbidly fascinating. Spatial reasoning is shockingly important: who knew?


Jan. 14th, 2010 10:13 pm
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There's something deeply satisfying about an exploding vampire. :D

Daybreakers! It's a very fun vampire movie, and there's not a sparkle to be found. I was aiming for an advance screening of The Book of Eli, but arrived about a half hour too late for the line, so we went to see this gory little beauty instead. Aaand I'm still smiling. Ha!

Last night was weird. About one in the morning I found the back door wide open! I just about had a heart attack. Logically, I knew that nothing sinister was likely going on since the dogs were happily sleeping, but I had to check everywhere and turn all the lights on to get some peace of mind. Even then, I couldn't make myself go back to sleep for hours. Adrenaline: it's not so fun.
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If I'd remembered to keep track, I probably would have reached the goal number the last time around. Oh well. Time for a restart. :)

Let's see now. New time period: from the last week of December 2009 to the last week of December 2010, since I'm including books read in the last month. Goal: 50 books. Children's books will count as 1/2 a book, rereads as a full book unless I change my mind.

1. Ten Little Indians by Sherman Alexie: These are stories about love, loss, sacrifice, and what shapes us, whether it's basketball, the love for the written word, or infidelity. Mostly happening in and around Seattle, the main characters are Indian, primarily from the Spokane tribe - which makes sense, since Alexie himself is Spokane. I really enjoyed this short story collection; the characters are varied and thoroughly fleshed-out. 5 out of 5.

2. The Summoner by Gail Z. Martin: First in a fantasy trilogy called Chronicles of the Necromancer, the story introduces a nicely built fantasy world of magic, goddesses, and ghosts. While 'a prince on the run and a ragtag group he finds along the way must stop an evil power from taking over their world' is not anything new, the characters are interesting, gender-varied and believable, and I like the system of magic and politics between the various countries. 4 and 1/2 out of 5.

3. The Blood King by Gail Z. Martin: Second in the trilogy. The drama and anticipation built up nicely, but I thought the conclusion itself was kind of abrupt. We'll see if the third book picks up speed or meanders... Even with the pacing, I enjoyed the story and new plot entanglements. 4 out of 5.

4. Witch & Wizard by James Patterson (and in small print Gabrielle Charbonnet): This was a christmas gift from a friend, sweet but misguided. I wouldn't recommend this book to anyone else. It seems to be trying to appeal to YA and fantasy readers, but the language and style isn't really coherent. There are randomly invented slang words, abrupt violence mixed with childish language, and no real depth to the story or characters. It feels deliberately dumbed down to create a (false) sense of mystery: if I had to describe it with one phrase, I'd say it was ham-handed. Honestly, there's a distinct difference between a story for young adults and a story that hasn't been written well. 2 out of 5.


Jan. 3rd, 2010 10:30 pm
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So, the last few months have been ... something. Too much to go into, really.

Anyway! This is not a post for dwelling, this is a post for the new year! I've never really gone for new year's Resolutions, but I've come up with some Words for my 2010 intentions:

- Accountability
- Focus
- Independence

So, yes. I'm going to make it a habit to post more frequently, though I doubt they'll be long ones. Tally ho!
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Testing... testing... 123.

This is mostly a post for testing purposes; I am trying out the new lj offshoot Dreamwidth and their lovely cross-posting setup. I'm also [personal profile] e_t_a on dreamwidth, though since I'm setting this up to crosspost, it's not like I'm disappearing.

Testing complete.

Oh oh oh!

Apr. 17th, 2009 02:17 am
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The Astronomer and the Poet

1. Why I stargaze

We share ninety-eight percent of our genetic code
with rats. Over half with grain. The stars, then,
must contain us somehow in their burning.

Something must contain this burning. Uptown,
our physics building is sequestered in a bubble
of certainty. And Harlem explodes around it.

We gaze because we're so small, despite
our need for choosing. We look skyward
to leave the best question hanging—why

an amazing woman is always amazing, even
with her head in her hands. It's true; there is no
way to know how small we are, or large.

I went to see I Love You, Man with an old/new friend tonight. It's a great feeling when you slide back into a friendship and click into place; I don't even mind that I can't tell if it was meant as a date or not! Too happy for overthinking. Mmmm.

ILY,M was, by the way, blah blah, this is not at all spoilery if you've seen the trailer or heard anything about it, but eh. Cut it I shall. )


Apr. 2nd, 2009 06:35 am
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Two Countries
by Naomi Shihab Nye

Skin remembers how long the years grow
when skin is not touched, a gray tunnel
of singleness, feather lost from the tail
of a bird, swirling onto a step,
swept away by someone who never saw
it was a feather. [...]

Read it on greatpoets here.

We lost my grandfather, my Papa, one week and four days ago. We held his memorial the day after my portfolio review, and the day before my graduation ceremony. I am... very tired.


Dec. 9th, 2008 04:42 am
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Someone I love and admire is fading away by inches. I can't stop it, and the only way to help is to keep smiling, and teasing, and breathing. Oh, Papa.

My grandparents are my definition of love. I have never seen two people so balanced by each other, so delighted by each other, so focused on the other's happiness. They are breaking my heart.

Oh, boys.

Nov. 12th, 2008 04:21 pm
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Hahaha, okay, so I just discovered BBC's new show "Merlin" (which is completely adorable in its own right --  )

In other news, Dexter continues to satisfy. I just love where they're going this season.


Nov. 5th, 2008 01:41 am
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\0/ HE WON, OMG EEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!! I am so happy!

on the less joyful side of the coin: )


Oct. 28th, 2008 02:44 am
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Ack ,a few more books to remember to post to 50 Books: Rewind, Persepolis (1 and 2), Armageddon In Retrospect, and Heart, You Bully, You Punk.


Oct. 28th, 2008 01:02 am
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I just watched the newest episode of Dexter, and ...cut for those who'd rather not read about this particular television show, or deal with the ensuing capslock ) :P

Books I need to remember to add to The List: Lonely Werewolf Girl, Hellboy: Animated, Stranger In a Strange Land, Wicked, A Wizard of Earthsea, The Tombs of Atuan, A Contract With God, Borrowed Tides and Edenborn.
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Thumbelina, man. It does things to you. )


Oct. 10th, 2008 05:14 am
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Long week.

My grandmother had been in a rehab center the last two days, until this afternoon! When she ended up back in the ER with blood clots! Sigh. And here I was happily thankful she wasn't hallucinating and terrified any longer.

In better news, I'm back in classes and they don't suck beyond the telling. However, I'm not sure whether to feel excitement or paralyzing fear over the fact that I graduate in March. I think I'll go with ignoring it for now...

Only tangentially related: rocketdock is my new best friend. It gives your PC a Mac-like dock! It works well with my sticker icons! *loves*


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